We had another growth scan yesterday, and the news is not great. My baby has dropped from the 20th percentile 2 weeks ago, to the 16th. She only gained 4 ounces in that time. My pregnancy phone apps says she should weight 2.25 to 2.9 lbs by now, but we're sitting at 1 lb, 13 ounces (1.8 lbs?), according to yesterday's measurements. That scares me so much.
The plan is to be seen weekly by MFM for a while, though my next growth scan won't be until the day after Christmas. I'm to rest when I can, and eat as healthy as I can... as if I wasn't doing that already.
She is still moving a lot, and her heart looks good. Her placenta has also cleared the 2 cm mark away from my cervix, which is what they wanted to see. I think it's something like 2.4 cm away. At least there is SOME good news.
I'm so scared, I'm depressed, the quality of my sleep is going downhill, and I'm carrying around a lot of tension in my neck and shoulders. I really want to not be so worried, because I know that doesn't do either of us any good, but today I don't have much energy to fight it.
Tomorrow I have a meeting schedule with my bosses and one of my coworkers about the plan for getting her ready to cover for me while I'm gone. I just don't want to deal with it, but I know I need to.