Friday, August 22, 2014

Helloooooo 2nd trimester!

My visit with the endocrinologist on Wednesday went fine.  I don't respond as well to the hydrocortisone as well as the dexamethasone, which is normal.  As a result, my testosterone and and 17 hydroxyprogesterone were a bit above normal.  He adjusted my dosage and the times of day that I take it, and we redo labs in 3 weeks.  He is also apparently concerned about my blood sugars, and wants me to start testing it twice a day.  I can't really think of any reason why, other than that I'm 40 lbs heavier than I was when I got pregnant the last time, and most of his patients are diabetic, so maybe it's in the forefront of his mind.  I'll play along, I'm sure it's for the best.  The next round of labs is probably also adding AIC and whatnot.

Betty's 18 month well-baby checkup is in an hour.  It'll also serve as a follow-up for her middle ear infection she had a week and a half ago (during which she spiked a 102.6 fever, yikes!).  I'm anxious to see how much she's grown.

Here are the 14 week stats.  If you're in a bad place, please feel free to skip this.

* Belly - I can tell I'm showing, but I doubt anyone else can... unless I throw on a maternity shirt, like I did today.  The cute ones that gather at the sides would make a flat-stomached woman look pregnant.
* Weight gain - I'm actually down about 2 lbs, though I have no idea why.

* Symptoms - I.  Am.  EXHAUSTED.  Breasts are sore and I'm in the potty even frequently.  Occasional constipation.

* Cravings/Aversions -  I STILL really want some Indian food!  I also had a mad craving for a breakfast Subway sandwich the other day... which I sated.

* Clothes - My work pants are starting to feel a little snug.  I splurged and bought a lot of gently used maternity clothes off of a facebook garage sale site.  I'll need to hem the pants, as I'm freakishly short, but they should last me the duration.

* Movement - I felt the baby do a flip on Wednesday evening.  There's no way it could have been anything else!

* Feelings on gender - My brother-in-law says "girl", and he's never been wrong.  We'll see!

* Meds - The endocrinologist switched me from 30 mg of hydrocortisone split up twice a day, to 40 mg split up three times a day.

* Mood - Still occasionally emotional.  I'm also starting to feel a little more confident, which scares me if I think about it too hard.

* What I miss - Sleeping through the night.  I can't seem to get comfortable, and just as I do...  It's time to get up and potty.

* Appointments - My next OB appointment is 9/9.  Next endocrinologist on 9/25.

* Medical concerns - CAH and managing hormone levels.  Finding a healthy balance of weight gain.

* Coming up - The weekend!  Woohoo!

Here's your dose of Betty for this week:

Friday, August 15, 2014

13 Weeks

It's time to start writing more about this pregnancy.  I want this baby to have the same things to look back at as his/her sister.

I'm going to use the same set of bullets as I did with Betty.  If you're in a bad place, please feel free to skip this.

* Belly - I can tell I'm showing, but I doubt anyone else can.

* Weight gain - I haven't started keeping track yet.

* Symptoms - I.  Am.  EXHAUSTED.  Breasts are sore and I'm in the potty frequently.

* Cravings/Aversions -  I really want some Indian food!

* Clothes - I never stopped wearing maternity jeans after my miscarriage.  They're just so comfy!  All of my other pants and tops still fit.

* Movement - Sometimes I swear I feel flutters, but I know it's not possible just yet. 

* Feelings on gender - No idea!

* Meds - I've been to my new allergist, who switched me to meds safer for pregnancy.  I see my endocrinologist on Wednesday.

* Mood - I'm only a little more emotional. Betty has an ear infection, and it's been REALLY hard seeing her in pain.

* What I miss - Sleeping through the night, and caffeine, by extension.

* Appointments - My next OB appointment is 9/9.

* Medical concerns - I'm trying not to worry about much, yet.  I don't know if IUGR will be an issue again, or not.

* Coming up - Betty will be 18 months on the 20th!  She's getting so big!

Tuesday, August 5, 2014

Milestone Passed

11 weeks is when my last baby stopped growing.  Passing that point in this pregnancy, and with my next ultrasound scheduled for 11 weeks and 4 days, I was very anxious for a few days.

I'm happy to report that Pistachio is still going strong.  S/he was measuring 4 days ahead, and had a beautiful heart rate of 159 beats per minute.

I'm still taking everything one day at a time, but passing this point is a big deal.  I have 3 more days on progesterone and then I'm done.  I'm trying not to drive myself crazy wondering if being off of it will cause any problems.  There was never anything to suggest that my progesterone was low, but it's reassuring being on it, all the same.

I've decided to go ahead and start weekly bump pictures, and maybe even weekly posts like I did with Betty.  I want this baby to have the same things to look back at as Betty does.  Jinxes be damned.

Monday, June 30, 2014

6 weeks, 1 day

I had my first ultrasound on Friday.  Going by the first day of my last period, I should have been 7 weeks.  Baby Pistachio measured 6 weeks, 1 day, and had a heart-rate of 110 beats per minute.  Since my cycle runs between 30 and 33 days, I'm trying my best to not be overly concerned.  She put me on an oral progesterone, just in case.  I go back to the OB and for another ultrasound in 5 weeks.

The checking of the TP at every potty visit is getting old.  But I can't stop.  I FEEL more pregnant this time than I did before I miscarried, if that makes any sense.  My boobs are super sore, I'm EXHAUSTED all the time, and I've got smell-related nausea.  It feels like it did when I was pregnant with Betty.  It's reassuring.

Thursday, June 12, 2014

Here We Go Again

Let commence 25 or so weeks of always checking the toilet paper after I go to the bathroom.  Think good, placenta-attaching thoughts for me!

Thursday, May 15, 2014

Better Late Than Never

Now that she's nearly 15 months, I'll share some of her shots from her 1st birthday photo shoot.

Betty is perfect.  She’s been walking for several months, to the point where she’s nearly running now.  She’s been sleeping through the night again for a couple of months.  She’ll repeat words, kinda, occasionally, but she’s not exactly talking.  She’s begun having mini-tantrums when she wants something she can’t or shouldn’t have.  She gets in to anything and everything that she can reach.  No drawer, cabinet, or trash can is safe.  Every day she looks less like a baby, and more like a little girl.  She is absolutely the light of my life.

I’m still suffering from post-miscarriage depression.  It’s been 2 months and 12 days since my visit to the ER.  I have moments where I forget that I’m not pregnant anymore, and I grieve all over again.  I thought I wanted to try again right away, but I find myself terrified of the possibility of going through this again.  I have actually felt some relief when my period shows up, knowing that some stresses won’t be starting just yet.  I feel like the fog might be starting to clear, though.

I hope I haven’t lost all of my readers.  I miss you ladies.  I’m checking in when I can, usually via cell phone, so I don’t usually comment.  I’m going to try to do better.

Monday, March 3, 2014


My body didn't want to wait until morning.  

I started having contractions on Sunday at about 3 pm.  They came every 2 to 5 minutes, for the rest of the day.  At 11:30 pm, my water broke.  About 45 minutes later, I started gushing blood.  JP drove me to the ER, arriving at about 1am.  Once registered, I was fairly quickly hooked up to an IV, had blood taken for testing, and given pain killers.

At 2 am, while the doctor was examining me, I passed (with assistance) my poor, so tiny baby, and other tissue.

Now I lay here in the uncomfortable hospital bed, waiting for the bleeding to slow, so we can go home.  The ER doctor feels the D&C is no longer necessary.

This sucks so much.  I feel so very empty.