Wednesday, October 17, 2012

Halfway There

I feel guilty that the 15th went by uncommemorated by my blog.  I personally have no experienced a loss, but I experience it through the words of so many of the blogs that I follow, and I always wish there was some way that I could lend more support.  I'm always thinking of you ladies and your angel babies, and sending my love.

Today marks 20 weeks pregnant for yours truly.  I'm going to skip the weekly post and instead just take a deep breath and honor a point in my life that I never imagined I would be able to get to.  Each week that passes qualifies under that, I suppose, but this seems monumental to me for some reason.  I still have a ways to go, I know.  I have so much love for this little girl growing inside of me.

I hesitate when people ask about her name.  I'm not really sure why, because I love the choice that we've made, and am so proud of it and where it comes from.  Maybe I feel like saying it aloud will jinx it somehow.  I exhibit a lot of that behavior.  I wouldn't give away my tampons, I can't delete the cycle tracking app off of my phone or clear the memory on it, even though I'm running out of space.  I feel loony just saying those kinds of things.

Her name is Betty Jean.  My mother's first name is Betty, as well as her mother's (my mammaw) sister.  My mammaw's middle name is Jean, and is actually the name she uses day to day.  I've always loved old-fashioned names, and these women are inexpressibly important and special to me, so it seems only right.

Only 20 more weeks to go, baby Betty!  I can't wait to meet you!

13 comments:

  1. I love the name you chose and the meaning behind it. Beautiful. :)

    Happy half-way there!

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  2. Congrats on hitting this great milestone!

    I love your little girl's name. It's so sweet and such a wonderful way to honour the women in your family. I'm also a fan of old-fashioned names. :)

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  3. Aww what a cute name! So refreshing!

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  4. Hi from ICLW and congratulations! My maternal grandmother's name was Betty, so it holds a special meaning for me as well.

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  5. I can totally relate to your feelings. It is not easy to let go off all those worries, but I hope you may relax more and more and fully enjoy every precious moment of your pregnancy and of getting ready for the arrival of your precious little girl. I love the name you chose, it is classy and beautiful. Our idea would actually be very similar for a girl, we combined names from grandmas and greatgrandmas. It means so much more with a family history.
    Happy ICLW #51

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  6. Hello from ICLW... and all I can think of is "Woah - you're halfway there, WOAH! Livin' on a prayer!!!" Congrats on your pregnancy and here's hoping the 2nd half is uneventful :)

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  7. Found you through ICLW. Congrats on being 20 weeks!

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  8. Hi from ICLW. Congrats on 20 weeks and losing weight via R en Y. I had the sleeve 2 months ago and have started to wonder if it would make a difference. We did IVF once before, epic fail, and then moved to adoption.

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  9. Hello from ICLW! Have to be honest, have been following you for a while and then when you got pregnant I have been keeping my distance. Excited that you are already at 20 weeks! Hope Betty Jean is doing well through the rest of your pregnancy!

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  10. Hello from ICLW. I love the tradition and meaning behind your daughter's name. Congratulations on being halfway to meeting her!

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  11. Great name! Way to bring the classics! I can understand how you feel.

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  12. Hello from ICLW! Love that you chose names from within the family. I am doing the same thing, though I haven't posted my names, yet. I don't want someone to beat me to them!

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