Tuesday, March 15, 2011

Sometimes

I guess I jinxed myself with my last post.

Sometimes I really hate the person that infertility has made me.

One of my childhood best friends is pregnant. She announced it on Facebook today. As much as I want to be happy for her, I'm too consumed with sadness for myself.

She's the 4th one in the last few weeks, so I've "hidden" the pregnant women from my news feed so that I don't have to see status updates about pregnancy and babies. I'm full of self-loathing for doing it, but it just hurts too much.

On another note, my 4th appointment at the weight loss center is tomorrow, so I'll try to update again in the next few days.

3 comments:

  1. Hello from ICLW. Oh goodness. Don't you hate those FB preg announcements? No shame in hiding the preg ladies from the news feed. I've done the same! Big hugs to you!
    Pix--
    Cheese Curds and Kimchi

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  2. It totally makes sense to hide those news feeds. Of course it hurts, and I'm sure they'll understand.

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  3. I know that feeling and good for you for hiding those posts on your newsfeed. You need to do what's best for you.

    (Found you via ICLW)

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