I'm sorry for my absence and lack of commenting. Please don't take this as a complaint, but being a momma is really hard! My baby girl, just like in the womb, isn't gaining enough weight. Her pediatrician wanted me to supplement with formula, but eventually agreed to let me try pumping after feedings and supplementing that way. I quickly discovered that my milk supply is below where it needs to be. While I am doing everything I can to increase my supply (supplements, nursing and then pumping), I am now also supplementing with formula. I am, admittedly, having a really hard time with all this. It's just so much, but I want her to gain weight and bs healthy.
We also went through a bought of jaundice that required two days worth of a bili blanket, which made us both miserable.
I had my mom here with me until this afternoon, and I miss her so much already (we live 5 hours away). I'm terrified to spend my first day alone on Monday when JP goes back to work. My anxiety levels are pretty high, but I am starting to feel a little better. I look at this precious little face, and I just know that somehow I'll figure it all out.