Hurdles

I feel like lately my life has been a row of giant hurdles. I can only see the one immediately in front of me, and I have a heck of a time getting to each one. In the middle is stress and long stretches of time.

Yesterday was the Sheriff's auction for the building that houses our shop. We'd known about it for a month or so. We did everything in our power to beg and borrow for funds to help us gather some money to make a bid. We spoke with the contractor that is owed the money (the cause for the sale). We were told that he had no interest in owning it, and would not be bidding. We held a yard sale for 4 days over the holiday weekend. We sold some of our (very few) valuable possessions on ebay. We borrowed money from friends. Our families were mostly unwilling to help.

Without getting in to it any deeper, we get there, nervous and scared out of our minds, with the measly amount of money we were able to scrounge, and a glimmer of hope that we would have no competition. The contractor bid high of the bat, and we didn't even get a chance to bid. He lied to us. We were/are devastated. We think that he is going to let us continue to rent for the time being, and do the necessary repairs to the building. Our overly optimistic hope is that he'll turn around and sell it to us for a reasonable amount, in the not to distant future, but I really have no idea. I didn't want to talk to him at the time.

I haven't been thinking about my surgery much. I've been continuing to diet and exercise, mostly. I hadn't made any of the purchases I needed to make, because we wanted to save every tiny scrap of money that we could. Now it's one day shy of 2 weeks away, and I don't have the energy to be nervous or excited. I suppose that's not a bad thing.

We did indulge in a little bit of retail therapy last night. I'm going to need a lot of liquid or chew-able supplements and medicines for a few weeks, so we got those. I bought a couple of cute nightgowns for the hospital stay. We also bought bicycles, and rode them the 2 miles home from WalMart. I hadn't been on a bicycle in at least 13 years, so it was a bit rough at first. I'm sore in interesting places, but its not too bad. I really enjoyed the ride, and am looking forward to taking more rides, and having a little bit of variety to my exercise options.

I guess that's all I've got right now. I'm sorry that this post is so fragmented. It's an accurate reflection of the state of my brain. <3